'And The Questions Come, Rolllllling In...'

when will you learn?

Soon hopefully.....

do you realize you honestly make me sick sometimes?

No I did not realize that

what do you see in yourself?

And by that you mean???

why do i get the feeling that at some point you are going to try and date to 'her'?

DATE WHO?!?!?!

Now I feel like these questions are just problems stemming from ONE main problem that she's having with me...but she just doesn't wanna say it yet.....

-OR-

......Maybe im just going about the WHOLE situation wrong and I need to look at it from another angle...

.....A Nigga Just Want Shit To Be Good, Ya Know?

So recently...I've been involved in a lil too much shit for my liking. I've been caught smoking by the principal OUTSIDE of school, my momma is sick as a dog, havin heart problems and has just been laid off (now I most def HAVE to get a job), teachers and people in school are becoming too much too handle, 'my girl' actin funny out of the blue for some reason, teachers all in my ass over the SMALLEST shit ...and to top it off the school WORK is piling UP. & When I sit back and think about everything its like...what am I goin through all this for?? Just to go RIGHT BACK to school next year in college, where there will be MORE work & more stress...things that I dont need right now.

& Recently, about 2 or 3 months ago I discovered a little stress reliever named WEED. Every since I started smokin, everything has been goin smooth, UNTIL I got caught... now its like everytime I smoke somethin bad happens that just fuccs my high ALL UP. & Its like Damn....Can a nigga have somethin that makes him happy (In all aspects of life)???

So pretty much as of right now, with all this shit goin on... I dont think im going to stop smoking for a minute... so niggas just gon have to be mad. Until I find somethin or 'someone' who can help me take my mind off of all this, the weed will still continue to get smoked :/..... :)

Kid Cudi - Pillow Talk & Kid Cudi - Higher Up

Thought I would share somethings that have been on REPEAT in my playlist for the last day and a half... pretty much shows how I have been feeling for the past week, Enjoy...

"My Girl Gotta Girlfriend I Just Found Out But It's Aight..."

So this is pretty much ALMOST how I feel about this situation lmao :

"My girl gotta girlfriend

I just found out but its aight
Long as i can be wit her too.
My girl gotta girlfriend
It really is not a problem
Cuz ima make it do what it do.
Cuz havin 2 chicks is better than no chicks
I'd rather just join in
Keep my girl and keep the other one too.
My girl gotta girlfriend
It really is not a problem
Cuz ima make it do what it do"

Lmao so yea, of course you know I'm just playin lol. But I mean, it WOULD be nice if it were to happen! But I'm not lookin for that...


Even though she won't admit it, I don't think she wants me to talk to Girl #2 period...and I can understand where she's coming from, but when I say that I wanna talk to her, I don't mean, "talk to her" I just mean try to get to know the girl. I mean is it so wrong for me to get to know the the girl, MY GIRL, is messin with lol?? She seems like a cool girl so far from what I can tell, and very cute....haha. But just because the girl is attractive doesn't mean I'm tryna, "talk to her" so if you are even an incy-tincy little bit displeased with the situation...just know that its not even like that. I Love You and only You :)....

I Know Your Sick And Tired Of Arguing... But I CAN'T Keep It Bottled In...

Aight Megan, I can take a hint...if you ain't tryna fucc wit me no more, then fine, do you...I wont hold you back anymore sweetie. So you can go on to "Be A Dog. Straight Grimey Shit. Type Of Dog That Stink & Dont Like Baths & Could Give A Fck About Fleas." Cause its obvious thats what you truly want to be deep down. And

And please stop with the bullshit... why the fuck would you ask me how I feel deep down inside and then say some off the wall shit like this, "Right Now... I Couldnt Give A Fck About How You Really Feel Inside" I mean are you playin games wit me?...tryna keep me along for the ride or somethin???

And this post isn't to disrespect you in any way, I mean on harm...so don't try and flip any of my words around, like you and only you can do...

And just to make sure everything is clear Im gon say it again...I will let you move on and be with her, I would not wanna be the one to hold you back.

P.S. - Please don't say, "I've Triedddd With This Person" when you know, honestly, NEITHER one of us have tried, ENOUGH.

Big Mouth, Big Trouble...

So lately I feel like I have been getting into it with a lot of different people over my mouth. I recently got kicked off the football team because of this problem. Also, I have been getting into it with my 1st period teacher because of it too, which is pretty much the main reason why I'm I.S.S. And it has also led me to get into A WHOLE lot of arguments at home with my Mom, which is the reason I decided to make this post.

Even though EVERYBODY says I speak at the wrong times and that my mouth will get me into trouble later on in life, I still feel like all my reasons for expressing myself in each situation were justified. I was never in the wrong in any of those situations, but since in the, "Life Isn't Fair" the adult always wins in EVERY situation.

And it might seem strange but the only thing that pisses me off the most (almost to the point of fighting) is when I'm being questioned or 'treated unfairly'. So in other words, I could proly get accidentally elbowed in the face, spit on, pushed, etc. but none of that would piss me off enough to actually want to fight, ANYBODY lol.

As of right now though, I think I'm just gon keep my mouth shut and try to ease my way through senior year, because I feel like anything I say could be used to ruin my life.

"SNOOP From The Wire..." Lmao!

This has got to be one of the funniest things I've seen on Youtube in a minute. Shout out to whoever this comedian is cause this nigga gon have a big future!

This CAN'T Be It...

Yea, I know its only about 2 weeks until the school year, but got damn when is the fun shit gon start happening. I remember looking at the 07' class my freshman year and thinking to myself damn I wish I was in their class! I remember I used to hear about HOUSE parties every fuccin weekend (Fucc A 2-Dollar Tuesday!), HOTEL orgies thrown by THE GIRLS!....I even used to see the niggas go with a girl ( they had to have fucced) and then break up with them, and still be cool with girl....I mean damn I was fuccin astonished at what that class had done within a single school year lol.

When I say they had everything, I mean They Had Everything, From all the Bad Bitches, to all the fuccin Athletes, and did I say all the bad bitches. I mean it was eye candy everywhere, so much I wouldn't even be able to name every girl! And I feel like after they left shit got worse (08') to worser (09') to SHIT! (10').

And I feel so fuccin wack for bein apart of this shit...We have NO eye candy what-so-ever :(, (and no I'm not exaggerating) and to top it off we have no athletes.

And right now im pretty much just thinking to myself,

"Is this really how it's supposed to end, seriously?!"

I can't really make a promise to myself that it won't allow it to end like this, but I just refuse to go out like the past 2 classes....I REFUSE!

You About To Tell Her You Love Her, We Off That...

So im like, WTF...you still actin stupid after you just said one thing the other day...But its wuteva I BEEN over this shit...all this Lesbian bullshit gettin old, a lil too old. So you know what...you can stay Mikey or wuteva other made up character you wanna be, I'm

T H R E W.

Back to the HOES, without any Guilt :D

DISrespectful Ass Nigga...

I just HAD to say this...how in the hell are you gon put DRAKE as featured on one of ya songs... and not let that man spit!...I'm appalled at you Jay-Z. You a fuccin hater. I believe you was probably scared he woulda murdered dat ass on the track...real shit.

Here's the song I'm talkin' bout, it's off the BP3 called, 'Off That':

NO, I'm Not A Virgin, I Use My Cajones...

I've got to say, Jay-Z....you have impressed me A LOT. I used to fuccin hate Jay-Z. I mean I was disgusted by this nigga, his style, his flow, EVERYTHING. But after listening to, 'The Blueprint III' I was feelin' dis nigga music. He has at least 5 songs on there that are FIIIYAAAA! To name a few, you got, 'On To The Next One' - 'So Ambitious' - 'What We Talkin' Bout' - 'Real As It Gets' and so on.......

But of course if you know me, you know I like dem Chill, S M O O T H songs...

So my favorite track on there is ----> 'Thank You'

Take A Listen

...Back When I Was Tryna Put A Ring On Alicia Hand...

So I just remembered something...in my last relationship, my ex girl was always saying suspicious things...like I used to always tease her about being Bi because she used to randomly say things about Angelina Jolie and how good sexy she looked, and of course she would say no. But towards the end of the relationship, she told me she was Bi (or at least she thought she was). This is her --->

I guess I never really anything of it because, I guess I just thought she was playing...but sometime last year I remember someone told me that she had a THREESOME!! with 3 girls!! Now of course I was skeptical at first, but after I heard it randomly from the 3RD PERSON...I had no choice but to believe it! And every since then I all I could say about the situation is, "Damn.........I wish I woulda kept her around a lil bit longer!"

If I would have had a Foursome with 2 other girls (and her of course), I proly would have been OK with no sex for about a good 6 months...but anything besides that.... and I'm gon need somethin at least once a month. NO negotiations :)

I think I might have to 'get back in touch' with her :D haha.....j/p...maybe.

17 going on 29...

Sometimes I feel like I'm on a whole different world from some people (mentally). I think I might take things too seriously sometimes. Like when I was around 13 and 14, I used to think when your were 18, your mindset was supposed to be so adult-like...and I kinda still do. Looking at most of these 18 year old's, they act the same way I did... 3 years ago.

I feel like no one EVER understands where I'm coming from, besides my nigga E...Like during last school year 2nd semester, I said something on the Book that people took TOO seriously, here's the what I said:

Go on ahead and put ya next hoe on board.......Im feelin a lil deep right now haha... so quote of the day," I REALLY DONT LIKE DATIN... ALL I REALLY WANNA DO IS FUCK...I MEAN AINT THAT WUT ITS ALL FOR ANYWAYS??.....

lol... So this actually was a serious statement at the time, but everybody took it the wrong way, of course. But I still believe this statement a little bit, regardless of what anyone thinks. If anyone is actually smart of enough to read between the lines and realize the meaning behind it then 'Thank You' if not then, Fuck You!

My Superstar...

So... I had been recently thinking about starting a blog, and since my girl said it would help relieve some stress, then I guess it wouldn't hurt to try it.

But speaking of my girl...I am now in a relationship with a girl named Megan Vaughan. I love this girl to death...even though I don't say it much around others. She is really like my other half... sometimes I feel like we've been in a secret relationship for over 3 years lol. Even though we get into a lot of conflicts (half the time there my fault), we always seem to go right back to normal, or at least I think we do. I don't think our relationship can really be explained...seriously, therefore, please don't ask because from now on I'm just gonna say, "IDK".

I still have mixed feelings on this whole Bi-Lesbian thing, but I will try my best to deal with them, just for her. MEGAN > mikey

One last thing I want to say to her is...

'Don't misinterpret my random acts of stupidity, think of them as random acts of love.' :)

P.S. - You're my SUPERSTAR - Usher